At five, she
has already established her place in the world. When not
climbing trees and roofs, she is making friends with other
people's pets and livestock. Her parents attempt to guide her,
but this free spirit is already listening to a different
drummer. Where did she come from? What makes her different?
She is a
child of the blue flame. Her life begins with the flame; with
blue fire swirling, flowing. The God-force gathers itself to
animate a small lump of clay, a girl-child. God sends forth a
beacon of power burning bright. The newly created personality
survives and grows.
girl-child is active and adventurous. She is mischief
incarnate. The remembered knowledge of other earthly visits is
reflected in her eyes. Strange expressions cross her face,
expressions of wisdom unusual for a child. The wisdom... the
awareness... is disconcerting. They watch her with a
in her life are mystified. Just what is it about this
effervescent bundle of energy that captivates and frightens? Is
it the fact that she seems to know so much more than a child of
five? Or is it that she is always there when something unusual
happens? What is it?
stationary, generally noisy, always inquisitive and downright
stubborn; she is already an enigma. What does the future hold
for her? What about the people around her?
is a neighborhood leader. Other children are attracted to her
like metal filings to the magnet. She settles disputes and
plans new adventures. Like the time they went on an early
morning raid of the prune orchard and Mr. Wellerman fired a load
of rock salt at Timmy. But since she had heard in her mind when
it was time to go, they escaped his anger and his recognition.
The adults are perplexed. How can a child of five command such
authority over eight and twelve-year-olds? The mystery
she explains psychic experiences to friends and relatives.
They think she is strange and try to ignore her stories. She
keeps on sharing and they shake their heads in concern.
She tells of
conversations with spirits. The adults don't know that she
truly does talk to spirits, regularly. They don't believe. She
tells of her invisible friend Laurelei. They ignore her. What
about pretty colors around their bodies; and they don't
understand. They don't know about an aura, and she doesn't know
the name yet.
about flying through the sky and watching her friends crawl upon
the ground. Little do they know that astral travel is common to
her, as well as levitation. Her spirit freely leaves her body to soar through the
sky. They laugh. But they wonder.
She seems to
just "know" what will happen next... taking changes in stride.
She talks of
spirit battles and of good and evil in another world. They
are unnerving. To reduce their anxiety, the adults begin to
tell her she has an over-active imagination, and needs to stop
"making things up." After all, stories about travel through
Heaven and Hell MUST be fabrications. Talking to Great-Great
Grandmother? Absurd! Where does she get such ideas?
finally believes her elders. Her direct link with God and the Angels
shuts down. She looses touch with the blue flame. She becomes
earthbound and "normal."
Life as a
normal child isn't as exciting or wonderful as it was before. A
least it brings acceptance, even friendship. When you are nine,
being "just like everyone else" is important and necessary. She
lives her life their way, and feels empty inside. She isolates
herself from the unknown. She buries the flame, and her true
dark times begin. The blue light of awareness is dimmed. There
is no contact with the higher realms. There are no exciting
astral adventures. There are no invisible visitors. She is
alone and lonely. It is lonely in the "real" world when you
know about God's place. She shuts down for the sake of other
people and their friendship. Yet she feels alone. Earthly
friendships are not enough. She stays alone in the dark for two
years. She cries inside.
eleven, she knows something is missing. She feels so empty. She
simply cannot be content. Her buried heart stirs to awaken.
She knows there is more to life. She rethinks her decision to
accept other people's opinions. Maybe there is something they
are missing. She decides to release the bonds she placed on the
blue flame and renews her link with the unknown.
is made. She opens her mind to secret thoughts carefully
ignored for so long. She lets her senses wander in uncharted
realms as she reawakens her spiritual being. She turns up the
light and again rides the power of the magic flame. Her spirit
breaks free of earthly limits.
she practices astral travel. She rides the blue flame; her
spirit is free. Trips to adjoining cities are not enough.
Every night, she sets her inner mind to travel to new locations
in other countries. She travels the globe from New Guinea to
New Zealand, learning more and more about geography and new
verification, she visits the library each following day to
research the locations just visited. It is amazing how much she
learns each night. Her accuracy astounds and encourages her.
She is filled with wonder and excitement. It helps her
geography grades in school, too.
step is taking along a witness or two. Of course she doesn't
discuss the adventure while the witnesses are awake. But when
they are sleeping, she drops by, offering an invitation to visit
London, Matzatlan, Sudan or Istanbul. The travelers explore and
learn. Then she takes her friend or friends home, and rejoins
her own body.
comes the next day. Waiting, she anxiously anticipates mention
of the adventure. Usually, the latest traveler mentions the
strange dream just experienced. It seems Michael dreamt of
flying to England; and our girl-child was there as well. It
felt so real! How could that be? The girl just smiles and says
"Oh? How odd." She smiles inside. She knows that her memory
she has rediscovered the beauty of the spiritual realm. She
learns that the study of sciences other than physical is called
Metaphysics. Since she has no physical mentors, she must rely
on books, experiences and her inner guidance. Her curiosity and
tenacity are astounding. Her personal storehouse of information
and experiences is always growing.
she begins to share her knowledge with other individuals. Some
laugh and deride her illusions. Some say she will be damned for
her sacrilege. Some are simply mystified... again.
there are those who listen attentively, who begin to
understand. Some can even share new information with her. She
recounts her personal experience with the blue flame. They talk
of conversations with spirits and unexplained knowledge. She
finds fellow travelers, also questing for knowledge. They learn
and play together.
she shares her knowledge freely, and ignores those who laugh or
call her devil. She understands. She forgives.
she understands her quest. Her path will not take her over
well-trod highways. The drummer she hears beats a different
rhythm than most. She recognizes the beacon of love and
knowledge lighting her path. She is content.
she is introduced to her first spiritual guide. It is her
father. Although he died a year and a half prior, he decided to accept
the task of helping her understand higher truths. He speaks
words in her mind. He is a comfort. She will have many other
guides later, spirits like Enoch, Maurice and Pteledia. How
wonderful that her first tutor is a loved one she knew so well.
His sense of humor helps her learn perspective. It is fun, but
he makes certain she learns much.
travels her adult years, this woman-child of the universe
tightens her bond with the alternate reality, which is the
spiritual realm. She begins to share her intuitive ability
freely with others. She allows the world to see her for what
she is, a psychic explorer, priest and warrior. When they laugh, she smiles. When
they condemn, she forgives.
healing abilities develop. She learns how to help others
create healthy bodies, minds and spirits. The power flows
through her body. The fire burns through her hands, gently
touching others. The more she does, the more she learns.
further knowledge. She becomes strong.
a time when she is grateful for her knowledge.
helping a client, she encounters the face of a demonic force.
She meets Bast, goddess of the underworld. She MUST help the
soul that is crying out to her. The help is not physical. The
help is psychic. And it is dangerous.
strength of love is stronger! The God force stands as a pillar
amidst the foul stench of Hell. She gathers the force of the
blue flame. She shields herself with white light and the battle
battle ends, the woman is untouched, her protection is strong.
The Demon is banished! Divine order is restored.
woman-priest is content. She has faced the challenge, and done
well. She knows it is not her last battle, but it was
important. It was a major turning point from seeker to
teacher. It taught her much.
makes daily contact with the source of love, God. She continues
her quest. She is a worker and traveler and minister in his
light. The power is not of her, but channeled through her. She
is one with it.
Fire is still forming.