Release the prior constraints you have placed upon yourself.  You are holding back in multiple ways.  When trying to be safe, the answer to opportunity is always “no.” Go for “YES!” Risk.  Apply for those things that may take you slightly beyond what you think you can get.  Because you have much to offer and are ripe for advancement.  Build your future.  Become that architect of your life that you always thought you could be.  Because you can.